Saturday, November 21, 2009

At least someone's paying attention

July 21

Although, all the other annoyances still bug me but they are old news however TODAY in a meeting a new one did happen to pop up... so there are 6 of us around this table and I started to notice that he kept going “mmm hmm” every 3 or 4 seconds when someone was speaking. I mean I noticed it and then dismissed it cause you know we all do the mmm hmm in conversations but then he just kept doing it over and OVER AND OVER.... I mean there were 6 people in this meeting this was not a one on one conversation where every point was made directly to him. The speaking was to everyone not just him so the speaker did not need to have his acknowledgement and neither did the rest of us dammit... NO ONE CARES THAT YOU ARE FOLLOWING THE CONVERSATION AND WE CERTAINLY DON'T NEED TO HEAR THAT YOU ARE GETTING EVERYTHING... lolol and it went on and on… so of course I start smiling and snickering (as quietly as possible of course) and then it took every muscle in my stomach to keep myself from bursting out laughing every time I heard mmm hmm. I completely lost focus and didn't hear anything for the last 15 minutes of the meeting...

well no big deal cause you know.... Frank got everything!

OK Who took my straightjacket?

July 16

Last night I re-read my post from yesterday with all my annoyances and I snorted water out of my nose, I could not stop laughing. Man did I ever go OFF on him there... lololol poor guy but it's all true... within 3 seconds of me walking into the office today he HAD to take a swig from is water bottle... unscrew the top drink screw top back on... JESUS here we go again lol...

You what's weird though? He brought earphones in today and he's been using them. Now not 89.annoying passed through my hearing canal since 10am!!! Woo hoo! Do you think maybe he can read my mind and actually heard me blasting him yesterday? Or maybe he's a super hacker/stalker and he broke into my email account and read it... hmm gonna have to keep an eye on this one... he may be slipperier than I thought...

Oh and I had to play soccer with him last night. The stupid captain offered him a full time spot on the mf team for the next season cause he subbed a couple of times... and of course he accepted... so now I have to work with him 5 days a week AND play soccer with him twice a week  God hates me.

How weird is it that I had super strong feelings 2 weeks ago and wanted to jump this guy (cringe... gag... blech... yuck... cough... hack... VOMIT) and now I have super strong feelings of the opposite kind as you can clearly see and want to pounce on him for a completely different reason?

Oh ya and I hate Frank's baldness now... HE'S RUINED BALDNESS FOR ME! Fucking asshole... I used to love balding men, it was so cute and adorable and now every time I look over at him I'm like ugh and dude. And seriously, about that goatee…. How about a trim? What the fuck was I thinking... dammit... I blame my friends! Just sleep with him, they said. Thank god I didn't but Jesus, they messed with my head enough and now look what I've done.

I've turned into a complete crazy person...

Oh ya and still not a word from the guy.... not even a hello to which he's stopped responding to mine. Yep.

How Frank makes me funny

July 15

Ya so I’ve been getting the silent treatment again… lol

And I’m super annoyed with this guy. EVERYTHING he does now bothers me... EVERYTHING.... his voice, his laugh, the way he always raises his eyebrows when he has nothing to say... his beating around the bush on most things cause he can’t give a true opinion on anything.... lol ahhhh I want out of this office!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i knew this was going to happen.... I knew it, I knew it... fuck fuck fuck.. well I made my mf bed so I guess I’ve gotta lie in it now... dammit

Every click of his mouse bothers me, his constant scrolling up and down, up and down, up and down on a document or web page bugs me... PICK A FUCKING PAGE DAMMIT, and he listens to the radio and to the LAMEST of LAME teenybopper station with the most irritating music with too many commercials, WWWHHHYYYY????? and he has a metal water bottle with a big screw top that he keeps screwing back on... on and off, on and off, on and off... LEAVE IT OFF! and he munches on stuff all day... CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP and he takes a multi-vitamin before lunch.. . open the cupboard, take the rattling bottle out unscrew the top SCREW RATTLE SCREW RATTLE... CAN'T U TAKE THAT AT DINNER OR BREAKFAST?... and his little frenchisms that he says a BILLION times a day... BEIN LA! AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH I can go on and on and on...

want me to?

lol omfg k Fiona get a grip here... sigh i'm going to need to be committed soon

Ummm, didn't I end this?

July 13

So Frank texted me again. Asked me to go for a drink. “i know ur busy but i miss u i want to see u”....

HUH???? WTF? Didn't I end this? LAST WEEK I told him that this wasn’t going to happen. And he dropped it. Didn’t really even talk to me after that. So I thought I'd gotten thru to him and then I get this text. Is he drunk?

So I told him "No. It's not about being busy, I need and want time to myself and I don't want to be with anyone. Sorry."

AHHHHHHHHHHH LEAVE ME ALONE... k I didn't say that but fuck...

He replies “ok i understand sry for bothering you”... argh so I'm trying to be nice here and I regrettably respond with "ur not bothering me (even though he is) but thx for understanding".

Then he AGAIN replies "np... thanks for putting up with me"

OK I am NOT answering that one…. That’s just annoying. I hate self deprecating men.....

Anyway so before bed I started deleting messages from my phone and I accidentally RESENT that I don’t want to be with anyone message to him.... lolol AAAAHHHHHHH at 2am!!!!!! fuck... stupid blackberry button that doesn't click ahhhh So I could see it sending but I was in my basement so it takes a little extra time down there and I'm panicking so I rip off the back and take out the battery... I'm like fuck fuck fuck... Then I take out the sim card before putting the battery back in, in case it tries to continue sending and I'm praying that maybe I stopped it in time and I look on the phone and there is a big red X next to the message so I'm like PHEW!!! THANK GOD I caught it just in time...lol so I delete the message and then put the sim back in and we're good to go.

So I walk into the office this morning and he's like.. um did u text me at 2am?

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Soooo embarrassing. I felt like such an ass... I was like "I'm so sorry, it was an accident I was trying to delete it... did it wake you?" and he's like "ya"... oooops… and seriously of all the messages to resend it had to be THAT ONE right? Lol

It's a little quiet around here

July 9

Hmmm awfully quiet in this office... oh ya work will be fine, don't worry.

Ya... uh

I beginning to have my doubts about that

Did I call this or what?

July 3

So it turns out he was waiting on me to send him something. I think he was putting ball in my court and I didn’t hit it back. Sigh... I don't think I'm feeling it anymore... I knew this was going to happen. Did I not call this? So now I have to fucking end this shit. Not that anything actually really happened. Thanks god! Too funny though, it lasted a whole week... lol But still, I knew I wasn’t ready and I told him so and he pushed it anyway and I let him and now I feel like shit. Why don't I listen to myself? I knew it, knew it, knew it!

aaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

...

OK So I've attempted to explain space to him... he's kinda clingy. And eventually he seemed to take it well. We're still chatting but I'VE BEEN VERY CLEAR this time and I guess he's cool with it....

Nice, I hope work won't get weird...

ya I think I'm over him... lol sad eh... a whole week it took.. lolol

Slut it up!

July 2

So we chatted some more last night, it was light and fun. Makes me feel young again but then when I saw him at soccer tonight I was cold as ice again and just got the hell out of there after the game. Poor Frank.

Everyone is telling me to just sleep with him. He's a big boy, Fiona! He can handle it. Besides you warned him, so if he pursues you anyway and gets hurt, it's his own fault. Just do it. You need it. Slut it up for a while... lol

Sigh... see when I was younger I didn't have that much of a conscience so I didn't give a shit if a guy got hurt... now I've gone all soft dammit. How did that happen?

Oh ya and not text or chats from him tonight...